“The Old Fella” Gone forever…


“Mac the Jack” was put to sleep on Friday 2/05/14.  My lovely boy past away in my arms.  He took ill last week or any illness he had, came to notice last week.  He showed no obvious signs of what was the matter with him, but his Kidneys where failing very fast.  The vet said they could possibly treat him temporarily only for him to take ill again.  I got the phone call from my partner that he was ill and that we had to make a decision.  I knew what I had to do . It would be so easy to keep him alive on medication to prolong his life for selfish reasons, it would not be the quality life that he was use too. Right up to this point, he had a lovely healthy life and only visited the vets for his regular jabs.  He was the “Private Pet Insurance” dream animal/client, we never ever claimed!

I got home from work early that afternoon to spend a last few quality hours at home with him, we sat in the garden in the sun, he loved the sun shine on his little body sat on my lap, with every stroke he gave a contended purr, I could tell with him that he knew it was his last moments with us.  We fed him his last meal, he ate it like he always ate his food with fury! it wasn’t held down for long, he was slowly shutting down.  After the earlier phone call to me, I made contact with “Raystedes” in Ringmer, East Sussex, they offer private a cremation facility that I have used in the past for my other dogs.

He said goodbye to my partner, she cuddled, held him and cried uncontrollably.  I placed him in the car, I think from that point he knew that was it, this wasn’t part of his routine.  I drove him down to Hove beach where we spent many hours together, I wanted to sit with him for his last hour alone together, so he could smell the air, the sea and all that he could remember about that familiar place.  We strolled back to the car slowly, I let him walk over the disused pitch and putt course, he loved a bit of grass.

In the car he started to shake, he knew.  I cuddled and kissed him and held him, we were never going to have this moment again and it was time for his last appointment.  So final.  He was calm in the vets, sitting on my lap, he gave a last growl to a dog that got just a little to close to him.   I was given a moment alone with him, my crying and telling him how sorry I was for this moment, I was ending his life in effect. The vet was brilliant with Mac and myself, it was very quick, I held him tight and kissed him goodbye, he slumped and that was it, no more illness or pain.

I was met at the pet crematorium by a smashing fella, who understood the needs of animal lovers.  I left Mac for his cremation and collected him first thing this morning to bring him back home.  Why do our pets get us like they do, I am gutted, lost, my house is empty again now.  My life was empty when my last Jack Russell “Zeus” past, Mac came into my life as a puppy a few months after Zeus Past and now, after a very fast, fulfilling and very demanding life as a dog, he has now gone.

He was a little bastard though!  but he was my bastard.  Walking him was a night mare, nothing was safe, he would have a go at every other dog.  Indoors apart from killing bees that flew around the garden, he was an angel, he loved us to bits and was such a loyal and loving dog.  I wouldn’t change any of it.   My Boy “Mac the Jack”. Love you son! 


28 responses to ““The Old Fella” Gone forever…

  1. My heart felt condolences go out to you. Such a sad loss. Your blog has helped me in knowing how you felt and how I will feel too when my 15 yr. old Spotty dog will leave me. Over the past few months I’ve been close to losing her but she’s fighting back I’m glad to say. Each moment so precious.
    R.I.P. Mac the Jack – be happy in doggy heaven

  2. I am sorry for your loss. We just had to put our old dog friend to sleep also. It hurts. Thanks for sharing.

    • Thank you for taking time to read the little tribute to Mac. He was a character alright, people loved him or they hated him , more frightened of him I think…

  3. We are thinking of you at this terribly sad time: there is nothing like losing one’s loving friend. Our old Jack would have been 17 yesterday and we miss him everyday. Mr Pip

  4. This is so sad. I’m sorry for your loss.

    I also felt the same way when my 5-month old pup died in my arms. He had Leptospirosis (damn rats!). He leaned on my shoulder and let out a subtle cry before he closed his eyes and sleep…forever! Your dog and mine are in doggy heaven now having all the doggy treats they can have! 🙂

    • They sure are! Thanks for getting back to me, at least my boy had a long life, your dear little pup was only just starting his journey, that was really back luck, so sad. I am sure your new pup will live a lovely full life with you and your family….

  5. My Heart and Soul cry with you. Animals give unconditionally, never counting the cost, nor naming the price. They never truly leave us for, for they are always around, just communicating on other levels with Love Eternal. X

    • Thank you for looking in and your lovely comment animallogic! As far as I am concerned they are always about, in your heart, soul, body and mind and definitely imprinted on the fabric of yourself and where you live….

    • Thank you amvanier, words cannot truly express what I feel and have felt for my animals over the years, I am glad that I was chosen to be there and look after my pets. I have a lovely Part rough coated Jack girl puppy now! She has been with us for four weeks now and it’s like she has always been here, probably sent by Mac the Jack for us….

    • Thanks for looking in xombiefox, Mac was a great dog, a loving companion, I gave him 14 yrs of my time and love and he did too me. Just getting used to my new pup, she is a live wire…

  6. Never was an old fella so loved. Such a heartbreaking story… what a series of exquisite, though painful moments… I’m glad to hear you have a new puppy in your life, and I bet Mac is whispering in her ear.

    Thank you for sharing all of it…

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